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A New Life

It’s been almost 2 months since I last posted. A lot has changed.

Just after the New Year, I decided that I had enough of being alone (hanging out with your grandmother all day doesn’t count as not being alone) and I downloaded a dating app to my phone. The first couple of days, I was pretty disappointed, as all I was getting were invitations for phone sex and requests for nude photos. I told myself I would give it two more days and if I didn’t meet anyone worth talking to, then I would delete it and figure something else out.

The next morning, I got a message. This guy didn’t introduce himself with a picture of his genitals and he didn’t want to see mine either. He wanted to talk.

Granted, I was a little skeptical, but he seemed really nice, and within a few minutes, I gave him my number to let him call me. Even while on the phone, he didn’t want to know sexual and personal details. We talked about each other and asked questions.

That whole first day, he was working at his pastor’s house and driving various places. He called when he could talk and we talked about so much randomness. I really enjoyed talking to him and when he finally got home that night, we didn’t get off the phone until after 3am. That is pretty late considering his pastor let him use his truck to drive all the way to my grandmother’s house 90 minutes away to come see me the next day, just so we could meet.

I barely slept at all, and the next day I was a nervous wreck waiting for a big truck to pull up outside. I still remember that first hug on the walkway in front of the house. I hope I never forget that. Grandma was a little snippy with him when he came in the house to meet her and leave her with his numbers so she knew who he was. Apparently she doesn’t like being called “ma’am” haha!

He took me Si Senors for lunch, and the food wasn’t as good as it usually is. Then we drove around and I showed him the tiny town of Deming. The park was across from Starmax so we spent some time at the park, just walking around and then sitting on a park bench and talking. Once Starmax was open at 3pm, he got us some Slush Puppies and was sat in the bowling area drinking them and listening to some music on his phone. Drinks weren’t allowed in the arcade area so once our drinks were gone, we went over there and had some fun. I totally kicked his butt at skee ball but the Deal or No Deal was the most fun. The guy who was running the ticket booth saw we were working really hard and gave us some tokens so we could keep playing for awhile on that game.

He really wanted to take me to his church on Sunday (this was a Friday) but gas in the big truck would’ve been horrible and his smaller vehicles weren’t up to the long drive at that point yet so I made the suggestion that I just come back with him so I could go to church on Sunday and visit for a while. When we went back to Grandma’s to let her know and to pick up some clothes for me, she was much, much nicer to him and I was a little shocked she was so okay with it!

Well, that was January 6th and I haven’t left since. I am so happy here. We both have pasts we’d rather forget and we are helping each other make each day better so the future is never like that again. We support each other in our likes and make sure we take care of each other. I’ve never been with someone who cares so much about how I feel emotionally, mentally, and physically.

When my “spells” made an appearance, he was concerned. However, instead of telling me to go see this doctor or that doctor, or convincing me that something horrible was wrong with me, he started looking for signs, and triggers, and he used his own experiences to find ways he could help me even though he had never helped someone with this type of issue before. He researched it more than I ever have online and he understands what causes the pseudo seizures and he knows what can help them.

Every day gets better and I have never been happier. Even today, when I feel like crap because of PMS and I want to rip my guts out! I know that I have someone who cares that I’m not feeling well.

I wish this kind of happiness for everyone.

Staying Focused

I have applied for several jobs here in my new town… the town I hope to settle down in permanently. I have been applying for everything I can hope to get, but there have been a couple that I feel I would be extremely happy with. One in particular would be great. It’s a part Member Services position and part Communications Representative. The Member Services is pretty much just customer service for members of the electric co-op. The Communications Rep duties include publishing the annual calendar of events for members, publishing the newsletter, handling the scholarship, and even writing press releases among other things. I handle many of the duties already with several of my freelancing clients so I hope I get the chance to interview for the position.

I have been visiting often with a couple of friends and yesterday they took Grandma and me out sightseeing which was fun. She was adamant about not going but they talked her into it which I’m glad they did as otherwise she would’ve just stuck around the house all day and moped because it was my dad’s birthday.

I think I need to call to make an appointment with my doctor sometime soon though as I’ve been feeling a tingly, sharpness in my feet sometimes… Almost like they are falling asleep but worse. It actually woke me up tonight. It has gradually gotten worse over the last week and a half to two weeks and I’m getting a little concerned.

There have been a lot of major updates to my freelance website. In fact, the only pages that I still have left to update are my Portfolio page with links to online samples of my work, and the Testimonials page where I will post some feedback that I’ve received from some of my clients. My writing rates, editing rates, contact, about, and blog pages are all up. I do need to write and post a new blog entry though just to make sure it’s current. Check it out HERE.

Well, I should get to work. I want to get a lot of writing done today as I really need the money at the moment. I have goals!

Something I’m Proud Of: Everything about ME!

Three Things I’m Grateful For:

  • Friends
  • Family
  • Fresh starts

My New Job & Other Developments

So I’m feeling a little better from the events that took place last week. (See last week’s post here.) The punctures are healing and my back doesn’t hurt so much. It’s still sore, and I am still babying it, but I can move around for the most part. So I’m looking forward to getting back to work tomorrow.


I am working as a long-term temp, with possible permanency at some point, at JP Morgan Chase as a data entry specialist for USCIS. Unfortunately, I can’t tell you any more about my job than that, as it’s confidential. But I’m enjoying it and it is nice having some income to help pay the bills since Quay’s internship this summer is unpaid. He still gets his GI Bill money each month but since his internship class is considered distance education, his GI Bill money is less. Which sucks majorly.




We are also in the process of getting a new fence put up. Our old one was four different kind of panels, most of them falling down or in the process of falling down, and none of it could hold the dogs in even if it tried. So we’ve had all the posts and panels for over a month now and it’s just been sitting in the yard with a pallet of cement. Today my husband’s step-dad came over and helped him get the front of the fence on the side yard up (minus the gate) and then start going down the edge of the yard, taking down the fence between the neighbor’s yard and ours as they put up the new panels in their place. I will put up pictures when the new fence is all the way up!


But since I was so involved in telling you about my ER experience last time, I didn’t really get to tell you about how I’m coping with my Bipolar. Actually, I’m coping quite well. My doc hasn’t had to make any changes to my meds in close to a year now. My mania has been under control – in fact, I haven’t experienced any mania in months. And my depression has been nearly non-existent since I changed my birth control method. (Who knew birth control pills could cause depression? Clearly not me!) So I’m doing good. I am thinking about joining a peer-support group soon so that I can help others who are in a bad place. What do you think?


So today, while the men worked, I pretty much just supervised or worked on homework, except when I was cooking for them (ribs and potatoes). Now Quay and I are watching the Red Sox game and I am relaxing the evening away until it’s time to go to bed. Go Red Sox!


Something I’m Proud Of: Getting my homework done today!


Three Things I’m Grateful For:

  • My father-in-law’s help in getting our new fence put up
  • The day off to relax, BBQ, do my homework, and sit in the A/C
  • My doggies, who love me unconditionally

Wow, I haven’t blogged in forever!

I can’t believe I haven’t blogged since September! So much has happened since then but right now I’m going through some physical health issues that kind of trump any Bipolar ones I might have gone through in the last 9 months.

In 2011 I had a pressure headache from hell and had a few seizures. Finally, after a few trips to the ER, they did a spinal tap and realized I had an opening pressure of 35, which is WAY more than the 17 it’s supposed to be less than. After 5 days in the hospital, and a couple more spinal taps, they blamed this pressure on the lithium I was on for my Bipolar and told me to stop taking it.

Fast forward to July 15, 2013 and I have that same pressure headache again. I go to the ER and the same doctor who did the first spinal tap in 2011 sees me. They do a CT scan and blood work to check for the usual things but then it’s time to look at things that I’ve had in the past (like high spinal pressure). They suggest a spinal tap.

The spinal tap takes for. ev. er. They try multiple times to get the puncture and the doctor even has to go get another doctor from a different department to try it. At some point, they hit a nerve and I practically jump off the table when a shooting pain goes down my left leg. Finally, they get it and it’s at 20, which is still higher than 17. So they drain off some extra fluid to release some pressure and give me a bandaid. To get rid of the rest of the headache they give me some Torodol and something for nauseousness. Then I was on my way home.

The next day my back hurt so much I could barely get out of bed, and the next day was no better so I called my primary care doctor and made an appointment for today. She looked at my back and counted EIGHT puncture holes there. There was also some adhesive in them from the bandaid so she cleaned it out. She gave me some pain pills to get me through the next few days and a doctor’s note for the entire week so I don’t have to go back to work until Monday. Hopefully I feel better by then, but I’m pretty sure I will.


Something I’m Proud Of: Seeing the doctor when I needed to instead of running away from it.


Three Things I’m Grateful For:

  • Having a Job
  • My Husband’s Support Through this Physical Illness
  • My Employment Support Specialist’s Help Through This